My fight, my battle, my journey

Before I was diagnosed I never used to care what my hair looked like, I used to put it up in a pony tail or in a messy bun and leave it like it, sometimes I left it greasy for days, sometimes it used to get that's knotted and tangled that it would take me ages (hours) getting the knots out and some of that time I used to yank them out and didnt care on what the outcome. I used to wash my hair with shampoo only never conditioned it either. My hair used to be ever so long as I used to go like 5 years without going to a hair dressers. I never used to do nice things with my hair like put it in curls or even just wear it down unless it was a special occasion like a party or wedding where I might only straighten it but as soon as I was home it used to go straight up in my pony tail again. When I was diagnosed with my leukaemia I asked the question is my hair going to fall out I was told " 2 weeks after my first lot of chemo I would definitely lose my hair, eye lashes, eye brows, etc

When you have been scared of blood all your life that you just see a little bit and was like oh my god BLOOD! That was pretty much me. When I was first admitted till now and will continue to have blood transfusions.  I'm still having blood products and will proberly for the rest of my life.  without having a blood transfusion when I need one means I feel tired, sleepy, lethargic, you even get headaches, nose bleeds, and more. The only thing is that when I have ANY blood products it MUST BE irradiated blood unless it's a situation where I need a emergancy blood transfusion on the side of the road I can have normal blood given to me but once I get to the nearest hospital I have to be given irradiated blood to replace it as normal blood can now make me extremly poorly and could actually kill me, this is what will have to happen for the rest of my life from the first time I had a blood transfusion. If you need a blood transfusion it's because you have a shortage of red blood ce